The Broken Angie Toy?

emotionally unstable angie is here to stay, least for alittle while
i attempted to make kyle hate me so then maybe i wouldnt have to care and it wouldnt hurt so much anymore, all i ended up doing was pissing him off, i hate distance, its not fair, in the mist of my breakdown the only one talking to me (other than kyle) was joe, i vented to him, vented on how i feel like im always in second place, i can never win anything, and there must be something wrong with me, what else could be the reason? he said he didnt think there was anything wrong with me, i feel like a broken toy no one wants, theres always someone better than me, and im left out in the cold, people make promises they can never keep, joe cheered me up when i was crying, him and i are starting to become pretty good friends, its nice to have someone to talk to, we were going to meet at dairyqueen today but plans didnt work out, and last night we ended up making a promise, well a deal really, he wouldnt drink for the rest of the summer if i didnt cut for the rest of the summer, and if he drinks and i find out i get to kick his ass, and if i cut and he finds out he get to get more drunk than he ever has, hopefully by the end of the summer, hell be over drinking and ill be over cutting

sooo... for awhile im going to be very mood swingy.. and my moods are hard to tell apart, sometimes when im mad it can be confused with happiness, so if something happens and i piss you off while im emotionally unstable, im sorry