Homecoming Dance Hell

WARNING: if you dont like seeing me have a bad time or be depressed, dont read on, plus, if you were there with me, seriously, no point of going on reading this

this is gonna be a short post due to i only have a half hour before bed, and lets do alittle cooking, one girl, one dance, minus the boyfriend, sucky songs comes out with atleast 10 times of crying (one of which lasted about 10 minutes) 3 times as many times of wandering off, several times ignored, hit in the head with a waterbottle. full. too late to call him, only two times of dancing, and only about 2 times of actually fun and hyperness, did not last long, stir well, bake for 3 hours, let set for 5 minutes and you get my night, homecoming hell, about the ONLY thing good about it were my friends, who did try to cheer me up while i was crying, especially ellie, leah, and ashley, monika, ellie of which took me away from the crowd to the stairs and hugged me while i cried, leah who kept urging me to call trevor and trying to get the number out of me so she could call and get the blame, also leah who tried to get me to have fun and dance (too bad all but 4 of the songs sucked ass) ashley, who also dragged me away from the crowd and also hugged me while i cried, she also whiped off my tears and tried getting me to dance too, monika who hugged me and sat with me, brought me outside and asked if i was ok, who also gave me her number so i could call her if i ever needed her, emphisis on EVER, i did however, come out of the evening with dancing twice on my own free will (people kept grabbing my arms and moving them as i stayed put, and miriah grabbed my shoulders and made me go back and forth) first dance ive ever cried, first time people found me crying in a public place and all that i could say was wrong was "i miss trevor" or "nothing im fine" but when i went with the "nothing im fine" with leah all she said was bullshit and tried to get me to tell her what was wrong, and everytime i said his freaking name i started crying, man.. i can remember a couple years ago, thinking it was so silly how girls cried over guys, and how sure i was that i would never be one of those girls, and look where i am now.. guess i really have changed, not sure if it was for the better or worse... and oddly enough people who dont even know me all that well asked if i was ok, like travis, when he asked if i was ok i said no and that i missed trevor, then ellie brought me over to the stairs and as we were going travis said take care, and more than a dozen times i heard "i hope you feel better angie" and three times more i was hugged, well, you win some you lose some right? and to trevor if he reads this, DONT FEEL SORRY just dont do it, i ruined my own night, dont feel sorry for it, even though i really wished i hadnt have gone and that i wouldve seen you tofay instead, DONT FEEL SORRY, dont feel bad, dont feel sad, least i can say... well hey! i thought about you the whole night trevor ^^; well im off to bed, and its been atleast about an hour since i was crying last... so i think im a bit better.. i never do too well in places with alot of people and choas, why i still go to places like that im not sure, but oh well, i think im better.. except for the really big erge to run to trevors house, walk the streets, and or scream to my hearts content, but mostly i want to do the first one... anyways..imm go now... bai!