Most people have an invisible friend... They call him god.

dont ask about the title, i finished listening to a rant by my friend sick-little-wolfboy... about god and such... my gosh ok have any of you seen the carls jr commercial with the song that goes like... "shake that thang" and so on, it just looks like that guy is trying to rape the cow... o_O;; but as i always say, you cant rape the willing ^^; yup... have you just have had a hell of alot of doubts in your mind? especially about yourself? questions you have that only time can tell? thats how i feel right now, along with alot of other things, like... am i really at all that great of a friend? i can be so cruel to people... and i know i am, im not sure why it just happens, and... i hurt people alot, with sarcasm or with my hands, which is why i normally dont like hving contact with people... for fear im going ot hurt them.. have you ever had the feeling that some people just pretend to like you, but really to them your just a leech? have you ever had people talk about how much they hate you while youre right there? have you ever had people go "oh god i have to sit next to them!?" or "dont tell me im their partner!" then when they go up to you they tell you stuff that your good and all that crap? have you ever had people put you down only to have other people say that the one who you think hates you very being likes you? have you ever hated yourself just for listening to those people? have you ever felt so pressured to fit in you changed everything about yourself? have you ever felt afriad to express yourself? have you ever walked a certain way to your classes just to maybe get a glance of the one you love? have you ever walked faster in the halls just to avoid ones who may torment you? have you ever felt that no matter what you did you would never be good enough? have you ever cried at night because you miss someone? have you ever wept into your pillow wishing to be held only to be left with music as your only comfort? have you ever wanted to walk to someones house in the middle of the night... and just sit on their front porch, and actually feel content because theyre near? have you ever been so scared of what people might think of you you kept quiet and hoped no one would notice? have you ever... just for a tiny moment had someone made you feel like you were ontop of the world, only to have that alternate reality shattered by one phone ring? have you ever just wanted to stop time right where you were so you could be happy forever? have you ever just hurt yourself just to know you can still feel? have you ever wondered if what we think is reality is really just a dream? have you ever missed someone so much that you couldnt stop crying? have you ever missed someone just 3 minutes after they left? have you ever jumped on a trampoline for so long that when you got up you still had the feeling that you were still jumping? have you ever had about that same feeling when yous hugged someone for so long... that even after they leave you can still fee their warmth? have you ever had just the smell of something that made you feel good from the memories attached to it? those are just... SOME of the questions 9i have floating around in my head... although theyre not really in question form... rather than memory form... for all of that has happened... anyways... i should finish eatting dinner XD baiii