STOP INVADING MY BRAIN JESUS

so, last...er morning i had 2 dreams with jesus in them
dream number un...une? anyways
it was school, jesus and i were in class, well kinda the only other people there were a sheep and a turtle o_O; i got all tired and used jesus as a pillow, he got alittle weirded out by it but let me anyways, we just talked, about how turles dont make you fall asleep but sheep are suppose to, after awhile the bell rang and i ran off, and it was recess, i guess, kinda, well i decided to take ducky for a walk, but for some reason ducky was a shitzu, anyways i took him out without a leash, but i was also walking with... myself o_O then my other self said she hated herself and was going to die, i started crying and hugged her and told her to NEVER say that again, then we went insearch of ducky and suddenly there were tons and tons of dogs in the park and we couldnt find ducky, then my dream ended

dream number deux
i was at school but school looked like my house, and well, ms walling was the teacher, after we finished the final we went back into the room and took a seat, after awhile i noticed that jesus never came back into the room, i looked in the front yard and he was moving desks, i went into the kitchen to get some food then went outside and sat on the front steps and talked to him as he movied desks [/end dream]

so anyways... another boring day i guess? well im ff to take a bath, just wanted to put those down before i forgot them

SO! the rest of the day, well i woke up jesus with text messages, i figured hed be awake by 2, anyways him joe and me went to the movies to see dun dun dun x-men 3, which was a good movie, never watched any of the other ones, but hey i liked it, although i never got what one of the girls powers was... anyways, after the movie we hung ou a bit at barns and nobles, which ended as me just following joe and jesus and listening to them talk about things i know nothing about, so i was kinda left out alittle there, they bought coin collecter books, and theyre having a contest, who can get all the penny booklet full first, but neither of them really won, but jesus got father so now joe has to buy him the book of maniless, and joe gets a cookie from me for losing, when i got home i got into a conversation with lana about how im not like other people, i get left out easily, lana says i just may be soft spoken and she never realized it, she started telling me to be more outgoing, be more loud, but well, i dont want to be one of those people that everyone finds so annoying but acts like they like them while theyre around them, but later when theyre not around they talk bad about them behind theyre back. lets see how many times i can say them and they and still make sense, although that still may not have made sense, but anyways, everyone does that to atleast one person, but so far as i know of i havent been the person talked bad about, although who knows what trevors been saying about me, i dont even know if he hates me or not, i guess i should send that email soon.. and another thing, the more i talk about trevor to ellie the less this whole situation with him makes sense, so a couple weeks before he dumped me he said he needed to tell me something, but he could never do it for one reason or another, well this thing he hasnt told anyone, he refuses to talk to anyone about what happened, why he dumped me or any of that, like hes hiding something, and whats the worst thing he could hide? hes gay? i dont know, i dont even know how i feel anymore, and speaking about feelings, well i almost told the guy i like that i like him the other day, course me being chicken shit didnt help, ive never told a guy i liked him while i still liked him, and well who knows how that could come back to haunt me, also along with feelings, with most of my friends, i feel... like im immature or something, like im still in 5th grade and everyone else is so far ahead and annoyed that im behind

and something totally different:
GrumpyGrl0505 (10:03:19 PM): your a fat ugly bitch! never talk to me again!
GrumpyGrl0505 (10:03:28 PM): wanna fight?
GrumpyGrl0505 (10:03:30 PM): call me
GrumpyGrl0505 (10:03:31 PM): ?
GrumpyGrl0505 (10:03:41 PM): (number removed because it is the internet)
GrumpyGrl0505 (10:03:52 PM): and i forgot top tell you im a ###
AlegnaNekcihc (10:04:03 PM): and who the hell are you?
GrumpyGrl0505 signed off at 10:04:18 PM.

i dont even know who that is, although theyve got two things right, i am fat and ugly =D

ALSO sign i saw on a church on the way home: "code of jesus: god loves you" i also saw one once that said "no perfect people allowed"

But it was a dollar! A DOLLAR!

so today hasnt very eventful, in about 3 hours imma be at a graduation party for josh, i think he graduated early or something, does make me feel a bit stupid, but thats besides the point, other than that... i dont think anything is gonna happen tonight, i might hang out with amber
how long do friendships last? when do they expire? i dont know, i just been thinking about it, so far the longest friendship ive ever had thats lasted is one with my cat, i get along with cats more than i do people sometimes, shes... i think about 10 years old, i got her when i was little after my old cat socks ran away, i loved that cat to death even though he didnt like me much, he was grey with white feet, white fur around his nose and on the tip of his tail, he was an outdoor/indoor cat, which really wasnt a smart choice to begin with, there was a white cat in the neighborhood which socks became very fond of, one day that white cat was run over by a car, socks was devistated, one morning i got his food ready like normal, i let cassies cat kitty have her share before i went outside to let socks in, i went onto the front steps and called socks, but he didnt come, a month or so went by and i realized he was gone and i never got to say goodbye to him, i was in first grade when this happened, we got muffin that year on my birthday, we went to the pet store to pick one out, there were four kittens in the cage, two kittens at the bottom by the food dishes they were both black and darkbrown, kinda like stripes, my mom and sister wanted those ones, muffin was on the middle platform in the cage, for those of you that dont know muffin is white with brown,grey,and black striped spots, anyways she was sticking her paw out of the cage and up into the next level of the cage to play with another cat, which looked much like cassies cat kitty, ichoose muffin because she looked familar, shes always been a curious cat, and always has been a good listener, she always knows when im upset and always comes and loves on me, once i was in my room crying, muffin came in and i fell asleep petting her, when i woke up she was still laying with me, she was asleep with her head under my chin, i so wish i could have had a picture of that or something

garret and ivy-havent seen since 1st grade, ivys moved by now
mary-moved to michigan and man to i suck with keeping in touch
james-moved away
a kid in my second grade class, i dont remember his name but he was the sweetest guy, first guy to give me a hug-he moved
megan-moved to idaho, never even got her new number or anything
brandi-moved
katlyn-moved to ohio, i got her address but i never wrote
lee-moved
leah-moved
caitlin-drifted apart
julie-drifted apart
stacy-drifted apart

thats only a few, a couple years ago i couldnted them all up and i got up to around 40
welli gotta go, were going to th graduation party now

so there was cake, there were balloons, there was pizza, there was blackjack/texas hold'em/and a form of hangman called shark attack which i got the highscore one! well... in the 5-12 age window *cough* there were pictures taken, and a hot guy with cool boots/cool pants/cool shirt/cool hair/cool armwarmers/and cool belt ... SO awsome, i would have raped him for his things but... that would be impolite, plus josh and sean knew him and such... i tried getting a picture of him but the windows were too bright to take a good picture with my phone, but seriously... i really wanted his boots and his shirt.. ANYWAYS on the way home mom kept veering into other lanes while looking at garage sale signs and such, which got us on the topic of a conversation that mom and i had the other day while unloading the truck of two wooden... box like things
me:whyd you buy these anyways?
mom:they were a dollar
me:you dont need them
mom:but they were a dollar
me:where are you putting them?
mom:ones going into my room, im not sure about the other one
me:so then why did you get both of them?
mom:they were a dollar
*as i inspect one that we just set on the lawn* me: mom this ones broken
mom:but it was a dollar
me:but its brok-
mom:IT WAS A DOLLAR
me:its even all beat up an-
mom:BUT IT WAS A DOLLAR!

mom fails at passing up good deals, even when she completely doesnt need it and we have no room for it, so now you know where my packrattyness comes from

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i hate you firefox, yes i do
anyways, so i was planning on going to the movies with jesus today, he called me at 7:45 to tell me he couldnt go, needless to say, i was sleeping when he called, so that freaked me out, especially since i had been laying on my phone while it was on vibrate, what sucked was my throat hurt, then i couldnt fall asleep for the next half hour, but anyways when i finally fell asleep again i had a weird dream, okay so i was at the school, but it was like a haunted house/fun house type thing, i was running around with laura when we ran into trevor, he asked to borrow my cell phone so i handed it over, then laura dragged me off, we went into some room where there were like.. shelves hanging from the ceiling, which laura and i put stuff in in a past dream of mine, anyways we started searching for our stuff and all we couldnt were a couple laptops and some magazines, then one of the security guards started yelling at us to get to class, so laura and i ran off in different directions, i ran into a classroom and i found jesus, he looks at me bewildered on why i just ran into the classroom and slammed the door, then he askes if i got caught, i nodded, and he said to try again, he asked the teacher in the room if he could go to the bathroom, then i went up to ask if i could get a drink of water, he gave me some papers and told me to go put them in the office, i walked out of the room, then jesus grabbed my hand and ran down the hall with me, i tossed the papers up in the air and we ran to the commons, there were tons of people sitting at the tables, jesus let go of my hand and we started walking, laura ran up to me and asked if she could use my cell phone, i checked my pockets and remembered i lent it to trevor, laura and i went on a search of the commons for trevor, when we found him i told him to hand over my phone, one of the security gaurds told me to sit down and dragged me off to another table, i yelled at trevor to give it back, he threw it and of course being me i didnt catch it, it fell to the floor and someone kicked it while going by, then the bell rang and all was chaos, i ran into trevor and punched him for losing my cellphone, and he took it out of his pocket and said it came back to him, then he gave me a hug but he pushed me when he let go and i hit the wall, i started walking out of the school and jesus ran up to me hugged me then ran off, then some girl asks me if i can help her start a fire, then when i finally got it going, we started talking about how fires are like... pets and that you have to feed them and stuff, then after a couple minutes i go "hey... yer pet died" and walked off, then i woke up o_o;
so now im bored... kinda hungry..but im not tired, i got more than enough sleep because eveyone signed off on me last night so i watched tv for another hour then fell asleep next to the laptop and with the TV on...meh..
ANYONE WANNA HANG OUT TODAY!? T_T so bored


... apparently not, ive called like six people today, all busy, not home, or just cant
i figured today would be one of the days i didnt get out of my pjs, but i spilled soda all over myself and now ive got nothing to do ._.'
people suck, im none too happy, rawr..

HEYGUESSWHAT IM HAPPYNOW
so i FINALLY got someone to hang out with me, june, and then while im waitting for mom lana calls and goes "HEY! angie you should go to rocketship park and have a party with me and kenton" so we did, and we had the feeling june had a crush on zach and kenton, and well, ZACH GOT PWNED BY A TRREEEEEEEE X3all cause he wanted to look cool his leg slipped and WHAM he got hit in the balls by a tree, WE GOT PIZZA AND SODA and breadchesseystickthings, BUT they wouldnt deleiver to the park T_T rawrwawrawrawr lots of fun and yay! ogmlrkglheirjkomgilovethem, kenton totally hurt me while giving june and i a hug at the same time, june got tripped by a hole, lana got raped by grass,zach kept harming his manlyhood, kenton kept stealin ma stoof, and junes, BUT HA KENTONS HAS A MOHAWK AND COULDNT STEAL MY HAT! lololololol >.>!!!!!11one *cough*


long post cuz im boredddddd...ededed...dided... o_O; ANYWAYS YAY POTTERPUPPETPALS
rawr rawr rawr, im fat *cough*
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free cookie to whoever actually counts all of those

...well now im ticked off, sarah refuses to talk to me anymore ever since she got her precious gabe back nyeeehhh... kyle is drifting apart and FUCKING HELL IM LOSING FRIENDS AGAIN i hate it, amber might be moviing sometime soon, fuck it all, everyone abandons me, and you know what, when i was talking to brett about how upset i was, you know what he says? you know what he fucking says? "get high" i told him to fuck off, gosh, then NO ONES ON, erg, people who can cheer me up are never around when im upset, WHY!? yea... busy with yer lives... everyones too busy to ever hang out with me e_e ...other thoughts... why am i left out of the loop almost everytime, like... im not important enough to know anything, you know what i hate most when people go "OH! haha remember that one ti-oh, wait nevermind you werent there" or then they wont explain it at all... e_e FUCK YOU

sorry... depressed moment <333333;

No sex on the couch

so yes, this will be editied later, but just so i dont forget, because i have a streak of doing that lately, its like.. 11:21, and some kid decids to give us the news paper, well when hes giving some to the people across the street, he throws it to the front step and the bag of the paper flies off and the paper pages go everywhere, that! was my entertainment for... now i guess... someone go to the mall with me =( or something.. i need entertaiiinnnmennntttt, maybe ill call jared later or something, gather some friends and go see a movie or something.

LATER

so ive got some things on my mind
how is it we all change so quickly, and dont even realize it? when i was at my aunts house i was looking at some of my journals and stuff from just... the beginning of the school year or so, and... i was much happier, or atleast i seemed that way, today i was reading some of lana's old blog and she seemed just more hyper and distracted, and even just over the course of this year my friends have changed so much, everyone through the awkwardness of the first year of highschool has nade their way into some clique, take ashley for example, at the beginning of the year, she was new, just moved here, no friends, she was in my study hall class, first day orientation, while we played the stupid games to learn everyones names she stood next to me, i kept myself from commenting about her obvious like of insane clown posse because i didnt think shed like me, months later i found out she had been trying to catch my eye contact for almost the whole time, so we could start up a conversation, anyways later that first week of school, laura and ashley had another class together and they made friends, (i had been friends with laura through 8th grade) ashley offered me a pixie stick one day at lunch and i befriended her, throughout the whole first semester in study hall laura, ashley and i would write notes, but soon it was only laura and ashley and i was soon left out, then ashley started ditching class, laura did the same, after their ditching theyd be laughing and telling me about it, making me feel all the more left out, one day when ashley wasnt at school, i attempted to drag laura to class because she was in enough trouble for ditching, she put up a fight and after dropping the backpack i had been dragging her by, she walked a bit back, i yelled "FINE, just dont go to class! see if i care!" threw her backpack and stopped off to class, for about two weeks ashley was missing from class, laura started coming back to class, and we forgot about that fight, we started getting more worried about ashley, i guess we had a good reason to, she fell into a clique, the stoners. she never goes to class anymore, the only reason she goes to school is to get more weed and see her friends, im not one of those friends anymore, laura doesnt think she is either, laura still gets hugs from ashley, i get nothing, and even laura has changed, shes more depressed now too, everyone else has seemed to fall into cliques yet i havent, i seem to be stuck between a couple cliques, half of my friends are part of the stoners clique, the rebel clique, the rest are band kids, goodytwoshoes, gamer freaks, or art freaks, but what am i? ive changed this year but im still the same, i have more knowlegde of the world, yet i still have most of my innocence, hell the most horrible thing ive done is drink

YAY summ-ER man, SUM er.... SUM E-R ...some emergency room

*cough* um... dont ask about the title because honestly, i dont know either, so anyways today was the last day of school, i got up late, and i didnt know the clarks were picking me up this morning, well... lets just say i only had enough time to get dressed shove some papers in my backpack hope they were the right ones, grab some tictacs my sweater and DASH out the door... kinda odd while im dressing and mom yells "ANGIE YOUR RIDES HERE" oddly enough, i randomly threw some stuff on, and it matched, *shrug* chelsea was proud of me, ANYWAYS, when i got to school i went to my locker then realized i didnt need to, i found missy and fuji right off the bat, so we all walked to study hall because i dont like carrying my backpack, we hung out outside of the room talking about sneezes with laura XD then i found ellie and sharon, stole ellies cupid bow and arrow and i stabbed people =D <3 anyways.. first period, study hall... well i did nothing that period, actually... fuji and i drew something together, kinda weird i think ill put it on dA later for all those of you... *what 3 people? XD jared jesus and ellie? XD* who wanna see it... remind me and ill put it up, 4th period... science i spent most of the period asking jacob stupid questions, but i got CANDY from ryan, so that made me uber happy.. next was french, but before that started i gave jesus some sheep monthly's to read, and well... the french final wasnt too brudal.. but crap, the oral final, the one i thought i did pretty good on, pfft... partcaly profecient... man that just totally screwed up my day, ADAM did better than me ADAM, the one who could never remember his vocab and ALWAYS asked me or ryan... ugh... anyways, the last while in class we had to our selves, well i was talking to thea and julianna, thea is convinced that adam and i are going to be lovers, so all of a sudden she says "angie, go ask out your boyfriend, now. go." i shake my head and thea says "oh come on, ill even call him over" so she does, he comes over and he asks how we did on the french oral final, well i tell adam mine and hes like "OHYEA i did better than her!" then decided to air hump towards thea, thea startes yeling "ew no go away" and kicks him a couple times, and that was the end of that, after class jesus came and gave me the sheep monthlys back, it was nice to have someone there after class, no one really does that, most of the time im walking through the halls alone, and you now what i really hate? the feeling i have when im walking alone, when everyone around me id people ive never seen or talked to before, i hate the feeling of isolation i get, i hate the feeling of being just a face in the crowd, i hate that if i were to have a panic attack right there, the most that probably everyone would do would be to step over me as im laying on the floor, so if you see me walking fast through the halls, thats why... ANYWAYS um... after school i cleaned out my locker, and judi took chelsea dan and i to DQ, well i ended up staying at theiur house for a bit, called home a bunch but no one answered, eventally chelsea and i walked to my house, then took ducky for a walk to the park, and... we said something funny... she said "OMG IM PUTTING THAT ON MY MYSPACE!" and i said "omgimputting that on my blog" well a couple hours later and neither of us could remember what we were going to put on our sites XD, came back then walked back to chelseas house, when we got there we watched tv, i told chelsea to sleep before she had to work, she went to sleep, then i watched daniel play a mafia game, and i fell asleep on the couch while daniel was talking to me XD i dont even think he noticed i was asleep, wel their dog louie ended up waking me up by licking my face, then i watched him play this... mental institution game, now that was awsome, you could talk to some of the mental patients, one of them asked "where are the pirates?" and he also said "i like my shock theropy, it makes me see pretty stars" and "have you seen my pet rat? hes blue and 7 feet tall" thats all i got to hear before daniel killed him with 1337 skillz, then i went to the mall with chelsea and well, i hung around love sac for awhile until emo kid showed up, aka robert, aka boy who doesnt take a hint, he kept hitting on chelsea when she was clearly irritated, and he kept getting all close to her tyring to kiss her, finally i got sick of the flirting and since my soda wasnt waking me up well i walked a lap around the mall, when i got back i ended up sitting alone and stuff, till cassie called me, i went and met her, then we shopped a bit, she got an ICP tshirt and a superman hat, i got a rainbow wristband and some glow in the dark bracelets, he finally left for awhile with his cancer sticks...and then around 9:30 i went home and ate something other than tic tacs =D whoooo, now im just... soakin up the glory that is summer... talkin to bryson elliepet, kinda jesus, and kyle, cause i cannn! whooo...kaybainnow<2+1

EDITBISH

okay so while chelsea and i were walking ducky we heard the icecream truck... so we started singing

"its the icecream truch
its the icecream truck
its the icecream truck
oh its the icecream truck
its the icecream truck
its the icecream truck
its the icecream truck
i loveeeeeeee yoooooooooooooooou"

...yes lame but we were really hot and sleep deprived

onemoredayyyyyy

KAY! so today... woke up late, and 1st period i was totally drained... i dont think i did too well on the final, third- NOFINALWHEE, the whole mock trial thing, that was cooler than any final, it was funny when ben was doing the rebuttle and he said "now if you were to fall off a building youd scream right?" so levi says no, so ben kinda stands there and smiles then says "that was a rhetorical question" i started laughing... it was funny... to me atleast, ANYWAYS, then math... that wasnt so bad, atleast sean didnt try to cheat off me, he did however try to take the calculater i was borrowing from erin, i almost kicked his ass for that... photography... welll that was fun, we criqued, and alot of people liked the panaramic of my room, most favorites ive gotten all this semester, so that was happy...after school adi came over to work on the rivers project, we were both way too distracted, it was almost sad, she really wanted to play with the hamsters though... OMGSHORTPOSTWHEEEE

Just because i can

SO! i havent blogged in... a month, whooo, blogging now because i spent like an hour and a half on the phone with jesus and blogs happened to be one of teh subjects of which we speked about, jesus is getting to be one of my favorite people, hes just... funny, and thats always a plus with me
ANYWAYS in other news, two more freakin days of school left... YES, my days were starting to all blurr together, which is none too good when those days are when ere reveiwing all the stuff i had forgotten little by little over the course of the year or semester, im not stressed about finals like many other people, studying never helps me, its either stored somewhere in the back of my mind or i dont know it at all, besides, the english final, just a tst over romeo and juliet, nothing for study hall, i mean who would quiz us on that? 3rd period... gov. well ms clapham says were just having a test over... one of the branches, i forget which... that cant be good. well anyways, for science all we have is a final project, which by the way im suppose to be working with adi on, BUT FUCKING HELL SHE WONT ANSWER HER PHONE, and if she thinks that i will do the whole project and let her put her name on it, she has another thing coming, my fist into her face... ANYWAYS 5th period, math, well that ive actually been trying to pay attention on the review days... ICECREAMTRUCK *cough* um... old habits die hard, anyways, its almost impossible to pay attention to ms davis, but... it just doesnt work, 6th period... french well i am kinda worried about that, because well i suck at french... i hope i do well... and finally photography, welllll... all were doing is having a critique, on the panaramics and on 3 of our favorite prints, i havent exactly done the last one... but oh well i have the prints made all i have to do is glue em on a board
and as for this weekend, well i spent half of it with amber, realized how fun it is to hang out with her, even if she is a stoner, she says i should atleast try it, well... i dont think thats going to happen, but knowing how weak i am, you never know, ill try not to though... ANYWAYS
the other half of the weekend i spent at my aunts house, i slept so much... as soon as i got there i ended up crashing on the couch, 4 hours later i ate, and stayed up till 1 or 2 am, that was after i talked to jesus and jared on the phone of course
the next day i ended up sleeping most of the day and i never got out of my pjs that day, course the dogs kept waking me up, riley wanted to play, i wanted to sleep... but whatever the next day being today, i came home, with beaucoup de candy, and sweets, i ended up haveing a homemade icecream sandwhich for breakfast, i worked on my science final... and yet again, adi....erg... ANYWAYS i feel sick... bleh, i ate too much pizza... well im don, salut loveys


EDIT
just because i like to whine
so another thing about last night, well i was so depressed, because of a trevor, i spent most of the night crying and complaining to ben, jared and me good dA friend rothaksa, hes a good photographer, check him out yo, but anyways, i complained to them all, and when i went to bed and finally stopped crying i planned an angry email inwhich i wrote today

so im doing a lot buetter incase any of you are wondering, ive got a puppy named ducky, im ungrounded, sure ive lost a friend, but i guess im okay with that, i guess things will fall into place sometime, i did have an odd dream last night though, trevor got some new girlfriend named alex or something, and instead of texting her, i got all these text messages from him meant for her *shrug* if that happens, im going to laugh, anyways in other news, seems im not the only one single now, kyle got dumped too, so sarah kyle and me and be the sad single trio again, whooo! yesterday after school daniel chelsea and i took some pictures for my photography class, and i called sarah, she says i so need to go to jacon or megacon one of these years, hopefully i will one day ^_^ i need money is the problem though AND ive gotten tons more pictures up on dA check em out ^_^ www.quietmouse.deviantart.com

worst weekend ever

worst weekend ever.
yesterday-dumped
went to the doctors because of my back, they sent me to the hospital
i cried lots, had laura over, that got my mind off of things... kinda, we debated on burning the things in my room that remind me of him, or to just put them in a box, neither were done, we watched saw and its not much of a horror movie is laura and i keep laughing at it, cassie took laura and i to the movies to see iceage2, mom paid for me and laura, cassie offered us food, by the time we started going home i was so hyper from soda i was laughing hysterically,that stopped soon though, on the way home cassie started yelling at me "FUCKINGHELLANGIESHUTTHEHELLUPIDONTFUCKINGCARE" i shut up right then and there, a couple minutes later through the silence cassie says "did i hurt your feelings cry baby?" i refused to talk, cassie pulled over to the side of the road and almost kicked me out of the car, cassie took the longest possible route home and stopped at king soopers, laura and i stayed in the car, i climbed into the backseat and cried while laura held me, when cassie got back i still didnt talk, laura and i ended up staying up still 4am talking, when i wokeup there were infomercails on, she stayed still around 3:30, we ate, watched music videos, listened to dane cook, when she went home i got depressed again, i dont feel like eatting, i dont feel like doing anything, the people i want to talk to arent on and the ones i dont want to talk to have their voices planted in my mind, ohyea, and today i dropped my cellphone in my glass of milk and now it wont turn on, my bad luck is sure to go on... at this rate ill get hit by a car... hopefully

LAST DAY OF BREAK

sad... ANYWAYS today i went to downtown denver with my mom to take pictures, what was funny is i took most of them in the car while mom was searching for a place to park, when she did park i only had like 8 left X3 we walked, got a soda, i took pictures, ran out of film and gave money to a hobo ^_^ for those of you that know me very well one of my goals in life is to give money to a/some hobo/hobos, give food, and or befriend one so yay me!
after that we went to walmart because i was in desprete need of some clothes, mom got side tracked from the mission in the gardening area, when we got over to clothes, mom and i had a slight arguement, i say i feel comfortable in black and jeans and she says i should push the envelope and try new things, I DONT LIKE WEARING WHITE! two reasons, im a messy person and things show up more on white, and two, i dont need guys being able to see through my shirt, the less guys look at my cheat the better
and speaking of my chest, i finally have new bras ^_^ for the unlucky few of you, you got to hear me complain about it before, but freaking hell i need to stop growing, they get in the way as it is, how the hell did i go from training bra to hand me downs to a c or b cup, i mean really bleh... and oddly enough mom and i still have no idea what size bra i wear, i fit into a 34b and a 34c *shrug* whatever
in other news, i got new shoes ^_^ and a bunch of eyelinder, hair things and a new watch ^_________^ we went home with $200 worth of stuff whooo!
so thats it for my day

WHOO!

so, today the band kids are back, least most of them, so i got to see trevor YAY!
so ive been all... multilating my magazines lately for my walls sake
so me jared ben and trevor went to the movies, we went to see hoodwinked, although since i was giving trevor a ride, we were kinda late cause cassie had to take her car and because of the STUPID SNOW i had to sweep off the truck, which later gave me no seat belt, not too back when your inbetween two people so you cant really move anyways (better than that one time i went to aunt cindys in the truck with mom and cassie... we were bringing mirrors up there, and omg cassie had so much fun blinding me) anyways, trevor and i missed the beginning, but it was a good movie, kinda weird... reminded me of a video game, anyways, after we watched said movie we went outside, decided we needed food, so we ran around looking for a place to eat and found some... thai place which seemed more like a sit down resturant, and BJ's subs... well we just made fun of the name, (i almost find it sad how well i fit in with guys, and how comfortable i am with that, like.. okay so i had very very few guy friends before 8th grade, the ones i had only talked to me like... 1 every few months unless they sat by me in class ot something) anyways, we finally decided to go into some japanesse place thing... after awhile we realized we had to go up to the register to order XD and we had... also random conversations while we waited for our food and while we ate, all very entertaining, then we had a lot of going outside, going back inside because its cold, and there were these kids under the stair thing, and after they got up ben said we should go take that spot, we sat there for a couple minutes before one of the girls who had been sitting there came over to us and was all... bleh i dont like her she was like "you should get out of our spot" and being the nice people we are we were agreeable then as we were getting up she was like "yea you should think next time" i left out a "pfft" and tried not to laugh and jared joked and said "yea you guys should think" mean girl though... they got busted later for loitering ^_^ what goes around comes around? we finally decided to stay outside, ther was beat boxing, talking, and swing dancing, and well... me not being able to feel my hands, i did a cartwheel randomly, hurt my wrist the fourth time i did it, and... well came home ^____^ i got to the door and it was locked e_e i had to go to the back door, when i got in dad was coming out of his room and he said he had to put on pants to answer the door, and trevor called to see if i got inside, and i told him thats what dad said, he said my family has a problem with wearing pants XD because when he called me before today i was trying on some of mom old pants because mine are majorly worn out, and well he called me when i was right in the middle of putting on some pants, and i had to go ask my mom something and i was like "HOLDON! lemme finish putting on my pants" so yup... wheeee

RANDOM GOOD SONG
consequence of sounds
by regina spektor

My rhyme ain't good just yet,
My brain and tongue just met,
And they ain't friends, so far,
My words don’t travel far,
They tangle in my hair,
And tend to go nowhere,
They grow right back inside,
Right past my brain and eyes
Into my stomach juice
Where they don’t serve much use,
No healthy calories,
Nutrition values.
And I absorb back in
The words right through my skin
They sit there festering inside my bowels

The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds
The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds

Got a soundtrack in my mind,
All the time. Kids-
Screamin' from too much beat up
And they don't even rhyme,
They just stand there, on a street corner,
Skin tucked in
And meat side out and shot,
And I’d like to turn them down
But there ain't no knob.
Run into picket fences
Not into picket lines.
All this hippie-shit for the 60's
And another cliché for our time. But,
But a one of these days your heart
Will just stop ticking,
And they sorta just don't find you till your cubicle is reeking.

The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds
The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds
Ahh ah ah ah ahh ah ah ah

Did you know that the gravedigger's still
Gettin' stuck in the machine
Even tough it's a whole other daydream.
It's another town it's another world,
Where the kids are asleep, where the loans are paid
And the lawns are mowed.
Whad'ya think?
All the gravediggers were gone?
Just cause one song is done
There’s always another one,
Waiting right around the bend,
Till this one ends,
Then it begins
Sqeaky clean, then it starts all over again.

The weather report keeps on
Tossing and turning,
Predicting and warning,
And warning and warning of,
Possibly it could be news publications and,
Possibly it could be news TV stations. That
Very same morning right next to her coffee
She noticed some bleeding and heard hollow coughing and
National Geographic was being too graphic,
When all she had wanted to know was the traffic
“The worlds got a nosebleed” it said
“And we’re flooding but we keep on cutting
The trees and the forests!”
And we keep on paying those freaks on the TV,
Who claim they will save us but want to enslave us.
And sweating like demons they scream through our speakers
But we leave the sound on 'cause silence is harder.
And no one’s the killer and no one’s the martyr
The world that has made us can no longer contain us
And profits are silent then rotting away 'cause

The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds.
The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds.
Ah ah ah…

My rhyme ain't good just yet,
My brain and tongue just met,
And they aint friends, so far,
My words don't travel far,
They tangle in my hair,
And tend to go nowhere,
They grow right back inside,
Right past my brain and eyes
Into my stomach juice
Where they don't serve much use,
No healthy calories,
Nutrition values.
And I absorb back in
The words right through my skin
They sit there festering inside my bowels

The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds
The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds

YAY!

Makeup and streaking?

i had a really weird dream last night, mom and i walked through the front door and cassie immediately greeted us, i went into the kitchen to get some food and texted ellie, after a bit i called ellie and asked if she could go hangout or something, she said no she was busy then said something but cassie started talking to me and i couldnt hear ellie, then ellie was gone, after a couple minutes of waiting i hung up, then trevor, jared, and ellie put me on four way, and i aked if anyone was up for doing something tonight, after awhile we had nothing decided, and my phone disconnected, they never called back, instead kyle ran in my front door told me to get ready then ran downstairs, i did as i was told and then i was dragged to the mall, when we got there he gave me a threnchcoat and told me to take my clothes off because me and him and group of other people were going to have some sort of protest at the mall including streaking, one by one we got on stage, out in the crowd i saw ellie, and she looked at me in disbelief, before we could start streaking there was a gunshot and the next thing i knew i was on the ground with everyone crowded around me, they all walked with me to the hospital and that was it o_o; anyways imma go back to watching tv...

Banklets, barbies, and binkies.

so tuesday... i think... we had csap... whooo e_e how stupid can you get with these questions, and i answered some of them with some pretty stupid but logical answers... like there was this one problem of folding a blanket, no sane person is going to start doing math when they want to fold up a blanket, and since it is fabric after some point its not going to fold, even if the simple math you do says it does, so the question asked, something like after what point will it be illogical to keep folding the blanket, i said when it started getting to half inches, cause no one is that much of a perfectionist to get out a ruler and make sure its that big, so anyways, csap, i was in a room with some people i knew, mostly because they categorized us by last name, so obviously i had seem these people at one time or another, we had two micheal smiths though, and lana and ariel reminised about me having a locker under both of them, and i remembered all the times they had dropped books on me
they gave us two breaks, one of which we could walk around for ten or fifteen minutes, inwhich time, trevor found lana and i and gave us gum, after the mess of csap, i ate lunch alone yippy
so the day after that, was a huge latestart, we didnt have to go to school till like noon, trevor came over and we played games and watched movies, the first period i had that day made me sleepy faster than ever, i was really hyper when i got to school because i had chugged down a rootbeer float, then we watched a movie on the legislative branch, science i was still tired and adi woke me up after i told her about fish day (april first for all of you that dont know) and so she put like 20 sticky notes on me that said fish i think i ate alone that day too
tursday, ...day before yesterday
band kids off to newyork, that made me happy *sarcasm* almost all of my friends are band geeks, trevor gave me a present, and after school i went to the mall with erin, i bought to things, both if which youll probably see when we get back to school
yesterday i gloomed up the house with me and my depressedness and boredom, and i still havent cleaned my room, i got a call from trevor last night, im not sure if it helped me or not, all i know is that i feel oh so left behind
TODAY! i woke up super early, for me anyways, 7am, i woke up hearing little twin voices, as soon as i walked out of my room sammy yelled angie and hugged me, andrew did the same, we played and set up a doll house which happened for like...3 hours, then we all got packed up and went to the mall, sammy and i ran, cassie yelled at me for influencing her, how can i not? anyways, i think im over my fear of a place to grow at the mills, i played with the stuff there, andnow that im over my fear, im horribly angry with one of the machines, for it wouldnt let me win tic tac toe, i took a bunch of pictures, but most of the time as soon as it took the picture one of them had already run out of the frame, we walked around build a bear, and sammy almost got a time out for eatting the stuffing, we ran out of quarters on the machines and i got a picture of them hugging bob the builder, and they started singing "bob the builder can we fix it bob the builder" then id cut in and say no we cant! we ate some starbucks, and walked around, then we went to the food court and ben found me and waved, im pretty sure he saw me skipping and swinging andrew aroudn too, and then we rode the caresel, sadly enough the lady told me to ride it too instead of standing, andrew and samy got horses, and i rose a bunny, the hell, why would someone ride a bunny? anyways, after that we went home, we colored, and ate some lunch, and now theyre talking a nap, so is mom and cassie, i should be too but... meh computers better, and besides, i really suck at sleeping in the middle of the day unless im at aunt cindys, i think im going up there today though anyways... so most of my friends have been in newyork... for like 2 days, and i already miss them all terribly, when they get back im going to glomp atleast one of them...
anyways! i think im going toooo... um... upload some baby pictures now ^_^

Love without complication galore

so, another school day.... csap tomorrow and such...bleh, i hate csap, i dont like the fact i have to be quiet for so long
anyways today! i was the replacement fuji, fuji was home sick, verrry sick, so i was the replacement, and if for some reason i cant fufill my duties, we al know mustard can replace me
...so cassies mad at me now, i seem to screw up alot now dont i?
anyways first period was english, we did some things with suffixs and prefixs, and tomorrow we get to do something infront of the class so well all remember the joys of suffixes and prefixxes, im in a group with KC kristen and laurel, were doing sokmething with ninjas, pirates and ghandi
...heh, some people know how to cheer me up without knowning im upset...
anways on to second period, fuji was gone so i talking to myself, and i sat in her seat, i was the replacement fuji after all
third period, i well... goofed off most of that period, erin and i had been ahead, so mr owens made me take the attendence down to the office instead of watching the movie
fourth we had a test, i bet i failed
lunch, well... that was fun, laura and i went for walks around the school, along with phillip, and everything is fun with phillip, and he put lauras backpack in the tree
fifth... i dont remember... i think we were talking about csap... that cant be good
sixth, we did our commercial about martinique and roughly translated....
Adam:HELLO PEOPLE, do you like the tropics? (i think anyways, i cant remember straight...)
Me: Yes! The tropical is magical
Adam: *walks over to ryan* HELLO PERSON OF AMERICA! would you like to go to martinique?
Ryan: (in english) BOY WOULD I! (in french randomly) i would speak friend to get to martinique!
All together now!: *singing* martinique est bon, martinique est amusant... est..... *looks like we forgot what we were thinging* ... TRES BON!

(in english: martinique is good, martinique is fun....is.... (looks like we forgot what we were thinking*.... VERY GOOD!
Adam: GO VISIT MARTINIQUE!
Ryan and me: its a trip! *cowering*

so yup... that was it
seventh, i goofed off again, i didnt have my film done... take pictures of downtown denver while its snowing? i dont think so e_e

got home and made a bandana that has ninja written on it, i made it out of an old shirt which is still too big for me, but has enough holes to make it so i wont wear it

i got upset

and now im fine... kinda...
for now anyways, as long as sarah doesnt bring trevor up like that in the middle of a fight again..

Forgot lunch:Regress 6 years in age

so, today i was told i was like an elementary schooler by four people, one of which was a teacher, im starting to think it was because i was so hungry
ANYWAYS at lunch i jumped in puddles even though i hate snow and the cold, which reminds me, this morning i looked outside and saw it snowing, i started pouting and called to mom, anyways i went puddle jumping during lunch, math i kept whining, and photography... welllll... we were hand coloring out prints, with paint... IWASJUSTFINEUNTILTHATSTUPIDORANGE okay so i was just fine the paint was staying only on my fingers and my print, then i wanted more orange, and the fact that the packages are metally the sides broke and got on my hands and pants, me trying to get some of the paint off my pants smeared it more, julianna said i might as well just put some other paint on my pants and make it look even, tashi took that as an invitation to put the little bit of paint she got on her fingertips on my pants, great, then i got some on my sweater pushing up my sleeves and some on my face, so yea, ms s., thea and julianna called me a little kid in photography *shrug* guess im just a kid at heart

What goes on in the dark room, stayyys... on angie's blog

XD so today in photography we have out totally random conversations, and thea and i were saying how wed really rather NOT die old, she said shed throw herself off a building before she let that happen, and i said something like "yea it seems more painful to live to be old than it does to die young, by your 60's your heavyly medicated, ceniyle, and you annoy the hell out of your relatives" and then thea said she wanted to die from falling off a building, and i said i wanted to die by clowns, it got all quiet then ivy says "angie, your creepy" XD IHADTOTELLYOUALLL!

Malfunctioning Angie

theres something wrong with me... i know it... there has to be, why else would i be like this....
i was so cold to him on the phone
i lied
im not okay, im not fine, im horrible and i dont know why
i tried calling back but he didnt pick up
i cant stop crying and i dont know why
theres something wring with me
how else could i be like this?

people passing out=bad? who knew *obvious sarcasm*

SO, you know what i find sad? the girl that made my life hell through 8th grade, the one who made fun of me because i was different, has no idea what the hell my name is, ive only been in the same school as her for how many years? for those of you who dont know who im talking about its jessica, miss full of herself, i mean really, yesterday in science she decided she wanted to pass out papers, she had to call my name out, how freakin sad is that? she picked me out last year to make fun of me and now she doesnt know my name, but it did trigger a compliament towards me from micheal, he said my

goggles were kick ass
in other news, i hink im getting sick, you know that feeling in your throat and you just know the next day youll be sick? thats how ive been feeling all day, that and i about coughed up blood today

other other news, i went to fujis today during lunch, i got to hold pixie their new dog, i wanted to conceal it in my sweater and run, the dog actually liked me too, or atleast tolerated me, it kept growling at missy

anyways, my thinking too much has returned... so you know i shall return with more rants

*sigh*

people worry me alot... mainly my friends, i care about them so much... fuck, im crying

Here you go, your baby is a perfect sphere.

so tonight i went to ellies house to do my cultural project for french, we watched a french movie, and it was almost sad how much fun we were having with such a depressing movie, now i would go on to tell about this wonderous night of foot orgys, but i think id get mauled by someone, most likely amy, and really she hits hard, so anyways imma rant, just because i can, and i cant be spoken over, which is exactly what my rant is about, so yes i do like haning out with my friends in large groups, aside from the fact that there are so many inside jokes i seem to be left out of, its really fun, up until i try to say something, i dont know why but people will listen to me for a couple seconds then someone else will start talking and all attention goes to them, i mean i really wonder if im that soft spoken, because i thought i was pretty loud, and yea okay it does hurt, but what can i do? ellie suggested me just saying shut up and tell the rest of my story, but when i tell people to shut up they get irritated with me and rather not listen to me at all, or just start laughing and "fine you dont get to hear my story" goes absolutly no where, maybe people just dont like my stories, which i guess would confirm that i am infact not funny, and i mean i do want to contibute to the conversation but after so many times of being spoken over i give up, so if any of you see me randomly start to isolate myself and stop talking during a group outting, its probably because no one would listen to me, and i mean its not like it just happens sometimes, but all the time, even when im talking with one person, theyll go off on a rant in the middle of my sentence, and ill stop talking and listen, maybe its my fault, im not assertive enough or something, and sometimes i just give up before the conversations starts because i know i wont be heard, which is okay i guess, i do like listening to all the stupid crazy stuff my friends come up with, so anyways, end of rant now, imma go photoshop and or watch foamy ^_^